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Feb
13

Embracing the Me God Made Me to Be

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Meek & mild. Calm, cool, and collected.

These are all words that I wish described me.

But they don’t. At all. Just ask my family or friends. I would get they would use words more like stressed out and energetic (said somewhat sarcastically.  Sarcasm runs in our family).

I have always carried a deep desire to be like Mary. To sit at the feet of Jesus and listen.  To sit and soak up the wisdom of the Jesus-like women in my life.

However, I am truly bad at sitting to listen.  The sitting aspect I have down – it’s just the sitting AND listening that I can’t seem to manage.  I’m more like Martha – I need to be DOING.

Maybe I’m uncomfortable with the solitude necessary at times to hear what God is trying to tell me.  Maybe I’m trying to avoid the conviction of the Holy Spirit, so I keep moving, moving, moving; hoping I can DO more, BE more, and prove myself worthy.

I have tried to stuff myself into a meek and mild skin many times.  However, it just never sticks.  I tell myself that the next time such-and-such situation arises, I’m going to handle it with calm reserve.  And then the situation comes to pass and I FREAK OUT and start doing, managing, organizing.  The calm reserve I promised myself has flown out the window and I feel like I’ve blown it yet again.

Just As I Am

Recently I was watching some videos online of two Christian women speakers. The first was quiet and meek, the epitome of a Mary in my mind. That’s what I need to be like, I thought.  I started a fresh list of personality changes to get to work on that would make me more like this woman that I admired.

Then, the next speaker stood up, and took center stage. She loudly announced that she was about to get all fired up. Oh here we go, I thought. This gal is like me. My eyes were rolling before she even had a chance to get started.  I assumed that if she was loud and excited she couldn’t possibly be a good teacher, because that is how I feel about myself. However, as she spoke, something within my was drawn to her.  Her excitement was catching, her passion was inspiring, and it was obvious that she was God’s woman through-and-through. Even though she was loud and a little zany and … a little like me.

I saw myself in her. But, more importantly, I saw Jesus in her.

And I realized that God can use me exactly as I am. Don’t get me wrong, He’s continually making changes within me. But my personality, who He created me to be, is EXACTLY what He meant it to be.

He can use my crazy, kooky, loud personality to glorify Him, just as he can use a mild-mannered sweet girl.  It’s not our presentation that matters. It’s our hearts.

That realization has given me freedom in a whole new area. The freedom to be myself, to share Jesus in my own kooky, zany way.  That realization has brought me JOY as I realize that God truly loves me and uses me just as I am.

 

Hallelujah!

Sing to the Lord a new song,

His praise in the assembly of the godly.

Let Israel celebrate its Maker;

let the children of Zion rejoice in their King.

Let them praise His name with dancing

and make music to Him with tambourine and lyre.

For Yahweh takes pleasure in His people;

He adorns the humble with salvation.

Psalm 149:1-4

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